Hormonals

These hormones are going to be the death of me... I feel like I do when I am not on my "head meds". I'm having crazy mood swings and there is nothing I can do about it. Yesterday I cried and slept all day, today I was ok for most of the day until now... it's 3:30pm and I'm just sitting here crying. I love that I am pregnant and I just hope I can handle all the hormonal ups and downs. I mean I have to. I have wanted this my whole life and I worked so hard to get it. I cant wait to be a mother and I know I'm going to be a great one...

Well Jon is taking me out to dinner tonight to Olive Garden, so I have to go finish getting ready. He will be home from work in about 45 mins to pick me up.

Do You Ever Really "Get Used To It"?

Well for the last week I have not been able to sleep at all... I have probably gotten 8 hours of sleep all week!I have been very dysphoric as well all week and extremely emotional and moody. It seems like I'm not taking my meds. I'm crying for no reason, and very "touchy", I get upset easily.

This morning sickness is just getting worse and worse it seems. Last night was horrible, we have come down to a few things that "cause" it or make it worse. Moving around... like bumps in the car and stuff like that. Like motion sickness in a way. Also strong smells... but there isnt a specific smell that makes it happen, just depends on the smell I'm smelling lol. The other thing that makes the morning sickness worse is getting hungry!! I have to eat something just about every two hours. If I start to get hungry, I start to get sick. I have been drinking lots of Diet Ginger Ale to help ease my tummy. I just cant get myself to eat crackers and dry stuff... my body just doesnt want it. Fruit is great stuff, my body really wants fruit! I'm not craving fruit, it's just what a prefer over something dry. Not that the fruit helps with the morning sickness but it's all good.

I'm still tired but I'm getting used to it I guess...

Sick and Tired

Man today was hella morning sickness day... been bad all day and almost puked quite a few times. Still tired too... Hoping in a month the tiredness goes away... everyone says it does after the 3rd month. I'm just about 8 weeks now too. We have our Ultrasound two weeks from Wednesday for our 10 week pictures!! Cant wait to see the baby!!

And the Fun Begins...

I've Been going nuts waiting to see about the sonogram... I'll make it though, I have
5 more days!!!

Today has been bad... very queasy all day and have diahrrea bad today... not sure if i'm sick or not. I do know that I am EXTREMELY tired... I nap just about every day after work and today feels like the worst. I have wanted to sleep all day. It could be because I dont feel well though.

The doctor also switched my meds about a week and a half ago. He put me on 300mg of Welbutrin XL once a day to see if it would work and I have had about 12 panic/anxiety attacks in the last week and a half and man do they suck. I get this flutter in my heart and a pain in my chest and a but lump feeling in my throat... I think he really needs to up my meds to the 450mg once a day. Oh and talk about moody... I have been really emotional and moody lately too... Jon is going to go for a ride during this pregnancy... I hope he is up for it! I know he loves me though and he wants this baby as much as me so he will work through it with me. I hope...