Cried so Hard...

Last night I cried and cried and could hardly stop because I was in so much pain. I was getting contractions all day yesterday but none to go to the hospital about. I believe that the contractions were pushing her down further into my pelvic bone and thats why I'm in so much pain. I hurt so bad I can barely walk, couldnt move in bed, couldnt get out of bed, couldnt even get off the couch. I feel incredibly helpless and like an invilid. In the middle of the night I was in so much pain trying to turn over and getting up to go to the bathroom was the worst. Jon has been great about helping me and even told me I should have woke him up in the middle of the night to help me... but I'm too stubborn, I hate feeling like I cant do anything for myself... I hate feeling so out of control of myself. I just can't believe how much it hurts. I need to make sure to say, I know it's all worth it and soon I'll be holding my little girl and none of this will matter but it still hurts so bad. Not only am I physically in pain, I'm going through a lot emotionally and... well... I guess I hope this means the end is near.